Forever
Rain streaming downward
freezing instantly
as it kisses the ground ...
Much like your heart is doing now ~
Feel like you're going crazy
everything grows hazy ...
How could it be ?? ~
You would've given her anything
including the will to live
if only you had known,
You thought it was going so well
and she held your heart
in the palm of her hand
but now your reason to go on breathing
is gone Forever ...
You hear a solitary shot ring our
and the bitter scent of gun powder fills the air -
You run to her
but freeze in your tracks
seeing what you feared the most
she lies lifeless ...
You fall to your knees
screaming " Oh God No !!!"
You thought she was happy
never a hint she felt otherwise,
seeing only smiles within her eyes,
An innocent facade she portrayed so well
hiding her true feelings ~
But inside she was silently crying
and she thought
happiness could be found in dying
Never saying a word,
not even a note to tell you why...
Yearning, lusting for something
she felt was for the better-
Taking the gun from your dresser drawer
carefully placing the pistol to her temple
pulling the trigger just once
her agony was through Forever ...
Three years later ~
still reaching out for her in the night
suddenly, painfully you remember
she's no longer there-
Within your mind
her smiling face appears
knowing she's gone forever
feeling the tears that burn the soul ~
The pain from living without her
still goes on,
A heart left eternally broken,
Another she'll never know nor share.
Desperately needing to know "Why?!!"
The answer to never be found
If she could've seen in your heart
she would've found herself there
However, sometimes love so intense
cannot bring joy to another ...
Kneeling in front of a tombstone
with red roses in hand,
a single tears falls
as you quietly whisper
"We miss and love you so much dear !!"
A tiny hand wiggling within your own ~
a smiling little beauty;
the splitting image of her mother ~
Her mother she'll never know ...
because inside she was silently crying
and she thought
happiness could be found in dying ...
~Sinderella '02 ~